Today I am the happy me. I think I am a 36 year old mother of 3, wife, daughter, sister… and the list of labels goes on. yet some days I get confused and find myself wondering who I really am. I wear so many different hats and walk with so many different circles, it’s often hard to know which one of those is me and which one others see me as. They’re all me, yet each is only a facet of a bigger “me picture”.
At this very moment I am blog girl. Later today I may be doodle chick or grouchy mama. I could be comforting friend or the whiney geek… I don’t know which, I’m not there yet, ask me in a few hours.
I know we all have varying emotions and mindsets. What really matters is who we are to ourselves. I have things I need to work on, and flaws I’d like to fix. I have issues I want to work out and things I want to improve. But I like me. I’m happy. I know, happy is not a who, obviously… unless of course I get to be a smurf or one of the 7 dwarfs. (SMurfs would be more fun, the cookie crumbs would last longer) The point is, there have been chunks of time in my life where I was not happy. I was searching and scrounging – maybe enjoying moments, but not really happy. I’m glad to be back to happy now.
Ever see the movie Savannah Smiles? I always wanted to be friends with that girl. Hang out with her and see what it’s like to be next to that kind of happy all day.
Stephanie Lichtenstein said “Deep down in their hearts people still love the same things they used to love when they were kids.” when talking about growing up. Thinking about this, I am finding that at this point in my life I am revisiting the same kind of happy like I was when I was a kid. I’m returning to my love for slurpees and Saturday morning cartoons. I’ve always liked to color and the smell of glue still triggers a smile in my mind. I’m not as worried about what people think of me as i was when I entered my “professional era”. I’m finding my way back to that “ok with who I am” place.
Young kids have this amazing ability to live life with a love for exploring and learning and just being themselves. Today I feel as though I am finding my way back to that mentality… without worrying as much about what “grownups” are supposed to be. I’m hoping that I’m working my way back to be able to say I’m that cute, happy girl in the red dress… again.
Side note. While searching for the video clip I discovered that the actress in the film died from an accidental drug overdose at age 21. Regardless of what turmoil she went through in that part of her life, her happiness is what I will always remember her by.
I've always thought you as the “cute, happy girl” taking pictures of people with her penguin. Who else lives like that? You are definitely an original!! Find a new red dress and you are set…
I've always thought you as the “cute, happy girl” taking pictures of people with her penguin. Who else lives like that? You are definitely an original!! Find a new red dress and you are set…
That “happy vibe” is a powerful thing. I've been thinking about a particular “unhappy” friend and the constant negative vibe that surrounds her. More than anything, she is searching for love, acceptance, recognition, and above all, happiness. But the waves of bitter negativity that roll off of her keep us “happy” folks at a distance.
I know it seems like a trite cliche, but I truly believe that happy attracts more happiness. Your vibe is clearly happy, even when you're experiencing the daily stress of being a working Mom.
That “happy vibe” is a powerful thing. I've been thinking about a particular “unhappy” friend and the constant negative vibe that surrounds her. More than anything, she is searching for love, acceptance, recognition, and above all, happiness. But the waves of bitter negativity that roll off of her keep us “happy” folks at a distance.
I know it seems like a trite cliche, but I truly believe that happy attracts more happiness. Your vibe is clearly happy, even when you're experiencing the daily stress of being a working Mom.
I'll get right on that.. red dress shopping here I come!
I'll get right on that.. red dress shopping here I come!
I totally agree… what you surround yourself with plays a big role in how you feel, but how you feel can also play a big role in what surrounds you.
I totally agree… what you surround yourself with plays a big role in how you feel, but how you feel can also play a big role in what surrounds you.
It is great to hear that you are getting back to slurpee drinking! I love that as well. You shouldn't worry about what others think about you. But I know they know you are an awesome giving and sweet woman. On a side note I want to get a glimpse of your “grouchy mama.” That could be fun! I enjoy sassy. 🙂
It is great to hear that you are getting back to slurpee drinking! I love that as well. You shouldn't worry about what others think about you. But I know they know you are an awesome giving and sweet woman. On a side note I want to get a glimpse of your “grouchy mama.” That could be fun! I enjoy sassy. 🙂
It is great to hear that you are getting back to slurpee drinking! I love that as well. You shouldn't worry about what others think about you. But I know they know you are an awesome giving and sweet woman. On a side note I want to get a glimpse of your “grouchy mama.” That could be fun! I enjoy sassy. 🙂
It is great to hear that you are getting back to slurpee drinking! I love that as well. You shouldn't worry about what others think about you. But I know they know you are an awesome giving and sweet woman. On a side note I want to get a glimpse of your “grouchy mama.” That could be fun! I enjoy sassy. 🙂