One of the Greatest Men I've Ever Known

He taught me how to ride a horse, love animals, work hard, be appreciative and don’t do wait for others to do something for you. He taught me family is always important.

My grandfather, Rollin D. Barnard, passed away this morning at age 87 after a long battle with cancer. I’ve been trying to write a letter to him for the past week or so, something to put my thoughts on paper; a way to honor his life. Every time I sat down to write I would be at a loss for words; not because I have nothing to say, but because I have 37 years worth of memories and can’t decide how to summarize so much into a single message.

What he was, is and always will be to me…

My “twin”
I was born on my grandfather’s 50th birthday. We would joke about being twins and share in the celebrating. We’ve spent our birthday together nearly every year since. Occasionally I lived in another state, so we missed the joint candle blowing, but for the most part we shared a cake together on our special day.

A mentor and an example for me to follow.
His life will be a reminder of the greatness we all have within ourselves. It’s all about what you put into your life, that you can get out of it. Hopefully that message I can pass on to my own children and the message will be passed along.

Loving – Giving – Funny
He had a quirky sense of humor but had no problem laughing with us at our quirks as well. He was supportive and generous and eager to listen to ideas and share his thoughts.

A man full of ambition and a zest for life.

I feel very fortunate that he was such a intricate part of my life and we had such a strong relationship from the beginning. He was there when I was born. He spoke at my wedding. He was there for the birth of all three of my children. Two days ago I was able to be there and hold his hand, rub his head and tell him I loved him.

Things I’ve learned from him…

Just about anything is possible
He grew up in the depression and became an adult with list of great accomplishments and achievements. I don’t even know all the wonderful things he did, but here are a handful I can think of… He was president of a Midland Federal Savings, Assistant Postmaster general under Eisenhower, the Mayor of Greenwood Village and the 1994 “Citizen of the West”. He is a Veteran of World War II and the Korean War and a recipient of the Purple Heart .

Support what you believe in most
He was involved in a number of charitable organizations including Denver Zoo, National Western Stock Show, Boy Scouts, Morris Animal foundation and Children’s Hospital. He not only

Be a leader
He’s always been the guy in charge, the one taking care of business and the man rallying the troops. He didn’t wait for others to do what needed to be done, he just did it. If he couldn’t do it himself, he either knew who could or he’d find someone that could. He was a go-getter.

Be honest
Be sincere
Be helpful
Be your best
Be loving

Be supportive
Be thankful

Be happy

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I could go on for days about the things my grandfather ment to me and what I learned and how I feel, however, I think that’s the point. I will go on for the rest of my life appreciating all the greatness he added to my life and hope I can pass on at least a little bit of it.

I’m going to miss him so very much.


Rollin D. Barnard
1922 – 2009
Husband – Father to 3
Grandfather to 6 – Great-Grandfather to 12

5 things I stand for

Yesterday I was driving down the highway and I noticed yet another pink ribbon license plate. It reminded me of my recent trip to the DMV. There are a ton of options for support themed plates. Anything from various causes to groups to view points. In Colorado we also have a “Pioneer” plate, which used to be really difficult to get. You had to be able to prove some heritage associated with Colorado, but now it’s easier to come by.

This got me thinking. We all have various things we support, often times these topics change as our life changes. There are a lot of issues that are important to me. A wide array of issues I support and a multitude of topics I have opinions on. Yet, which are significant enough that I would choose them as the single license plate for my vehicle?

There are definitely more than 5 things in my mind I would plaster as a topic I’d like to voice my view on. This is my top five list for today, in no particular order.

1. Children – Family in general is important to me, but our kids are the ones that need us most. I think far too many people forget our children are born geniuses with a view of the world many of us have lost sight of as we’ve gotten older. Our kids are our teachers as well as we should be theirs. If we stop and listen to them, it’s amazing what they can teach us about love and life. They need us the most, and we need them just as much.

Little fairy by JGoode

2. Fighting Cancer – many of my family members have been hit one way or another by the ugliness that is cancer. More recently I’ve realized how many people in the world, outside my own little bubble, battled the various forms of this disease. There is so much pain and human destruction from so many things, but cancer seems to be something we should be able to fix. Maybe in a bigger picture I’d say I would like to simply fight disease or pain in general, but for today the label is Cancer. I wish there was more I could do to help.

3. Peace – not to sound like a beauty pageant type answer, but more of a state of mind kind of answer. Everything starts within ourselves, and peace is no exception. On days that I can find and hold on to my own inner peace, I am so much more helpful, kind and giving. I’m more capable of caring and being patient or even stopping to really listen. I need to remember each day to find this place, for the benefit of those around me.

4. Learning – Every day we learn something new, and we should continue to remember and make note of it. I had the opportunity to talk with two little girls yesterday while waiting with my 2 year old daughter at an appointment. One of the girls was pointing out all of the toys and commenting to me that the toys could teach my daughter various things. I replied that we all learn something every day, we just need to stop and think about what it is. The other girl heard this. She stopped, thought for a moment, and started rattling off all the things she’d learned in the last 10 minutes. At my house, we often go around the dinner table listing what we’ve learned for the day.

5. Thankfulness – Thanks is such a huge encompassing topic. I think it’s more about appreciateion. When we are thankful for something, the impact can be enormously wide reaching, and one little act of thanks can have a ripple effect we won’t ever see the end result. If we take the time to stop and show our gratitude for even the smallest of things, it could impact someone else greatly – that act of reaching out without anything more than to say thank you – it is a powerful gift to give.

I bet you thought I was going to say penguins, didn’t you?

Penguin by JGoode

Every day is a good day to skive

I just read a tweet from Michael NobbsGood advice from illustrator Laura Barnard “. Since I’m intentionally trying to focus more on art conversations and less on what I’m making for dinner, I thought “hey, I need to check this out”, so I clicked.

Laura doodled up a little note/message about her plan to skive all day – I’ve never heard of such a word and her sketch on the topic was so intriguing, of course I had to look it up.

According to wikipedia: “To skive is British slang for the practice of avoiding responsibilities because you want to do something more fun or just don’t want to do what you should be doing.”. The Urban dictionary expands to say one would pretend to do something, or they avoid doing what they are supposed to be doing, that they get paid to do. (that’s a lot of doing of nothing, don’t you think?)

The Free Dictionary and Websters said: To cut thin layers off (leather or rubber, for example); pare.

I’m going to stick with the British slang today, if you don’t mind.

Oh Shiney! By JGoode

Skiving sounds like what I do every day, on purpose! I love that I now have a label for my activities, other than “slacking” which sounds so negative. I’m an active skiver. Is that a correct title? Can I put “professional skiver” on my business cards? I am an expert. I’m good at it, and as Laura says, I can get away with it because for me, its research and development. Maybe I’ll write up a tutorial… sell an ebook: The Ins and Outs of Successful Skiving.

I know, really I appear to get a lot accomplished. Little do you realize I divert from my list more consistently than anything else I do. It’s almost like I have a list for the sole purpose of having something to avoid.On the up side, some of my best ideas have been “thunked up” while I have been “working”.

Something else to note here, the beauty of social networking. I don’t know Michael Nobbs nor do I know Laura Barnard. Twitter helped create this connection and this connection has now made me very happy – distracted and currently skiving like a mad woman on a mission, but happy.

Are your influences good for you?

I’ve always been a wanderer in many different circles. I like the diversity of meeting and knowing people with different interests and experiences than my own… each a small reflection of something I enjoy. Not to mention, I have a short attention span, so having multiple interests and activities in common with different groups of people keeps me excited in a number of directions. I try to surround myself with a variety of positive vibes so my mind stays on an upbeat most the time.

It’s interesting to me how some of my own focuses are mixed so fabulously with the people I come across.  I’ve met artists that are crazy in love with social networking as much as I am. I am friends with internet marketers that love crafting or photography. There are bloggers that write about business as well as art. Each of these people have an influence on how I focus on my own projects, how I look at my progress and how I plan for tomorrow.

I’ve learned that I can’t just sit here and draw – no matter how much I love it –  if I want to really build a career and reputation around my art. The people I network with, unintentionally remind me every day to not just create art, but shout about it.

All of these influences also have an impact on the art I create as well. My subject matter is my life and common every day aspects of the world around me. I avoid letting the negativity in life influence me, however. I’m always trying to find the positive in situations because focusing on the negative doesn’t do me any good… and besides, who want’s to buy an un-smiley face on a t-shirt? I don’t want that karma landing in my bank account.

Examples of influences that have been good to me

I’ve never been much of a girly girl, but wen I sat down to draw up my impression of a true girl, this Little Diva is what I came up with. At the time I didn’t yet have a daughter… she has turned out to be exactly like this – If it’s girly and pink, she thinks it’s hers. Maybe the illustration was foreshadowing. The influences of the unknown are powerful!

Little Diva by JGoode

Last year I sent out a twitter that asked “If you were a food, what would you be?”. From that resulted the Smiley Cheeseburger – a Scott Jangro response full of inspiration. There’s some seriousness in that grinning burger, right next to the mayo I think, look carefully.

Smiley cheeseburger by JGoodeSometimes I just draw some silly thoughts that have crossed my mind. This passed out Easter bunny, “The Day After Easter“, was inspired by my husband’s – first time as the Easter bunny dad – Easter experience. I’ve never seen someone so exhausted by egg filling and jellybean hunting.

Day after Easter by JGoode

Another influence for me is food. I have a theory that food is a universal language. Everyone eats so therefore everyone understands food. My explanations of various topics always include food analogies… and so does my art. This is where my happy Nut collection came from.

Happy Nuts by JGoode

I can’t always attribute a design to someone or something specific, but it’s always a life experience that has influenced me in one way or another.I always try to keep it upbeat and positive, and if my surroundings get too negative, I switch my environment or train of thought.

Is exposure payment enough for art?

Google has been contacting prominent artists to invite them to share their art for the new web browser, Chrome. According to the New York Times, Google has been asking artists to share their art for no fee. The artists would allow use of their art for “skins” that Chrome users will be able to use to customize their browser… for zero fee to the artist.

Is the exposure of one’s art displayed to millions of people enough compensation?

There are a lot of variables that have to be considered when answering this. There is no absolute right nor wrong answer because the outcome will vary depending on the artist, the user and the actual use. What is the actual exposure and how will that use and exposure benefit everyone involved? In this case, Google is asking to offer high quality customized skins for their new product to their entire user base. For Google, they gain unique art for their free product. For Chrome users, they can personalize their browser with unique art. For the artists, the benefit is the exposure to hopefully millions.

what is the value of art?

I am more concerned about who this program is open to and how credit given. If the program is open to anyone wanting to get involved, that’s one situation. I love the Google free concept. They offer tools and services to users for no fee, opportunities that previously, in some cases, cost hundreds of dollars. Think about the Google stats program Analytics, previously Urchin – a high class software now available to anyone that wants to sign up and use it. This type of business offering is similar to the Open Source mentality of programming- Create works that are shared at no cost for the good of the whole community. Being a part of that type of community is a fantastic concept in my opinion.

Keep in mind, Google does earn compensation for use of the art, it’s an indirect compensation. Payment for offering these Google software freebies is the data collected from the use of these products. Google then utilizes the data to improve their tools and services, free or otherwise. Their actual revenue comes from their advertising networks, commercial tools and services, not directly from their freebies. I think it’s a brilliant concept and benefits many people in many directions. Should the art be a free part of this or a contracted, paid for effort? Depends on the artist’s goals and needs.

Just because a company asking to use  art isn’t charging for whatever the art is used on, doesn’t mean the art should be free to use.

If the Chrome skins program is only open to those that are invited, then the spirit of the sharing is lost. Using artwork for free would then be more taking advantage of the generosity of the artist community for the sake of bettering a product, free or not.

Art should never be assumed as a commodity without a price tag, however sometimes the compensation is not an actual check. Exposure isn’t always enough but I think it all depends on the circumstances and the motivation for everone involved.

For me, if I were considering involvement in the program, I’d have to see the fine print. The agreement would have to include visible credit for my work so anyone that liked what they saw could easily find more of what I’ve created.

art isn't free Penguin by JGoode

I create art to share it with others yet we can’t survive on giving away freebies.

On a closing note, please remember, no matter the use or the fee requested, always ask the artist before you use it.

What do you think?
Is exposure enough payment to allow use of your art?

Does it always pour when it rains?

I’ve been working on this topic for about 3 weeks now. It originally started when the weather was literally cold and wet and the mood around me was just dreary. At the time I was dealing with a dozen projects, new concepts, the end of the kids’ school year and a couple family members in the hospital. The world felt like it was pouring anxiety and wasn’t letting up long enough for me to breathe.

photo by JGoode
photo by JGoode

Today as I write this almost all of the happenings of 3 weeks ago have been resolved, finalized, healed or otherwise. Yet, new issues, tasks, conflicts and worries have taken their places. While one issues seems like it is the top priorty of my universe, as soon and there is a solution, a new issue becomes the top spot.

This is a reality I think is worth noting and finding a new route to manage. There will always be tasks and issues and changes and things to handle. There will always be some kind of “urge” priority while other items take the second seat in my lobby of responsibilities. I think the goal then is to learn to let the stress go entertain itsef and not get in my way.

Part of this process is going to require me to give up control on a few things. If i see an issue I know how to handle, yet it’a not my issue to solve, I need to learn to let it go. I should probably learn to leave it alone, but I can’t seem to keep my mouth closed if I can think of a way to deal with something… I have to at least share my insight. I mean really, what if I don’t share my view and it could have helped someone else? Yet, if I am going to continue to brainstorm with others, I need to learn to no hold on to the ideas – needing them to be acted upon.

I think, for me, another difficult task is going to be learning to look past the choices my children make. My job is to teach them to make good choices, but if I continue to demand they choose the option I would, they won’t learn to make the choice themself. How can I unload my stress and overload if I am holding on to the decisions others make? Sometimes I think I like to torture myself… how insane.

photo by JGoode
photo by JGoode

The bottom line, no matter how hard we work nor how organized or prepared we are – there are always going to be situations bigger than we are. There are always going to be things out of our control. If we let go of the things we can’t dictate – leaving them behind, the rain might lighten up a bit. We will be able to see through the clouds to the things we’ve actually been able to give our best effort. Then we’ll move forward feeling more accomplished.

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Picking a Perspective

Everything that surrounds us has a great deal to do with what we actually see around us. If we surround ourselves with negative, the positive is that much more difficult to see. When our view is towards a specific direction, our actions tend to follow.

Something that might not bother me today could turn out to be a huge disaster of a situation next week because my perspective has changed. There are so many things that seem urgent at this very moment, yet yesterday the same things might not have been issues I bothered to think about.

Sometimes our views are so focused or narrow, our perspectives can prevent our seeing the real rewards. The view becomes cloudy with detail…

narrow-view

We become so involved in the tiny, often times irrelevant, details that we can completely miss seeing the yumminess of the big picture.

I Love Cheesecake

Other times our desires and expectations can skew our perspective, blocking our view of the real potential outcome.

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Perspective can also be major factors in determining many of our priorities. Sometimes it’s a vague connection, while other times there’s a very apparent direct link. I can be sitting in the middle of my house after a rough day of kid tornado-ing and the visual chaos makes me feel like my life is in chaos. Another day there might not seem to be a lot of pressing projects or big to-dos to tackle, the piles of laundry and forests of toys at these times don’t cause a problem at all.

My perspective today: Nothing is as tragic or out of control as I think and I should probably – most definitely – work on being more patient and a heck of a lot nicer. Last night, however, the world felt like it was crashing down, I was alone in the middle of it and the best way to feel better was to yell and growl and stomp around. A good night’s sleep with a few weird dreams can change an entire view.

I think the best habit to get into is: pay attention to the view we have. Take tabs on ourselves to make sure our perspectives aren’t so skewed that we’re hurting those around us or missing opportunites we’d succeed with.

What is your perspective about perspective?

I didn't know I needed the break

Every now and then I get in a productivity slump and I can’t seem to shake it without becoming a complete slacker. I end up feeling like there are road blocks all around me. No matter how many brilliant ideas I have written down or flowing through my mind, I can’t seem to motivate myself enough to accomplish them. At these points, I just have to stop and walk away for a bit.

Last week was on of these times. I kept going to bed with the thought “tomorrow I’ll get things done”. I’d wake up with a list I wanted to start with and then within an hour I’d be side tracked – doing not much of anything. I did a lot of nothing it seemed like – yet I was busy all day, every day. By the end of the week, my whole plan was skewed, my to-do list was untouched, but my mind had gotten enough rest I was able to handle the unexpected challenges that landed square on my shoulders.

I don’t fight these downtimes anymore. I’ve learned that it’s usually my subconscious winning a battle I didn’t know I was fighting. Some other quiet side of myself has been taking notes and remembering that I need to stop pushing the clock as much as I do… constantly. It’s like having a co-worker right next to me nudging me to take a little break. We all need that helpful hand once in a while.

We’re more productive if we work in spurts. I tend to find myself in a rhythm and I want to run with it, keep going full force, so I do. Yet, I’ve found that if I try to continue this drive once one direction is completed… my next round of projects aren’t always as great or my enthusiasm isn’t always . If I stop and divert my attention to something less important or just take a break all together, I can jump in refreshed for a new project much more prepared to accomplish great things.

Taking a break

I don’t always remember to stop when my mind needs it, but, thankfully, my body seems to.